Spring and what to do with sprouting onions.

I don't normally eat onions. I can't cut them without wearing goggles or my eyes will burn like death... The consistency is weird and slimy. I really do like the taste, but don't want to have to go through the work or unforunate sliminess. However, I bought one a few weeks ago. They must've been on sale. As much as I try to eat the food that I have and not buy frivolously, I forgot about the onion in all of the excitement. Poor onion. I returned from spring break to see that he had sprouted (a lot) in the week I was gone. There's no eating him now, I thought.

What to do with a sprouted onion? It's raining today, and spring is finally sprung.

So... I planted the onion. Maybe he'll grow.


Spring and sprouts remind me of the resurrection. We read all four accounts of it this morning... After dark Friday, I can't wait for our celebration tonight.

I am greatly looking forward to this summer... Fresh fruit, garage sales and flea markets, yoga with friends, devouring books with no motivation except my own, speaking/hearing Spanish... all of it. Being a college graduate will be a plus too.

Three passions have governed my life:
The longings for love, the search for knowledge,
And unbearable pity for the suffering of [humankind].

Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of [people].
I have wished to know why the stars shine.

Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.

This has been my life; I found it worth living.

- Bertrand Russell

I found this quote today and thought it appropriate. It's how I want to live my life.

Anyways, I said I would write more about spring break. I'd have to say it was the best one ever, though not as relaxing as I had hoped before it began. He proposed to me and I said yes. And screamed a lot. I was completely surprised, which was sweet. We spent hours and days with my family, and it was the perfect start to life. I feel so blessed to get to know this man, to spend time with him, laughing and talking and driving and just everything.

And now it's hard to return to school... classes and work and work again and homework and sleep and everything that just seems to get in the way of life. I just want to sit in this - to know him better and learn all that I want and need to learn.

I'm so excited to see where God leads us. What he teaches us through each other and through life. I'm so excited that I get to live life along with David.... It's gonna be fun.

I can hardly believe it. David and I are engaged! And I'm so happy.

Love is an interesting thing. A wonderful thing. And I'm learning more and more about it, how to love and how to receive love.

I'll write more later.

Snow day!!

Today is a snow day! Amazing. It's beautiful and peaceful and I love it.

My first snow day ever.

Jobs.

Oh, I have a job. And I think I'll like it.

Spring break starts tomorrow at 5:30pm for me... And it couldn't have come sooner!

Tea.

Since I got sick on Thursday, I've been rediscovering the joys of tea. Last night I had a cup of 'Tension Tamer' (which is delicious despite the lame name), and found this quote on the back of the box.

It's talking about wildflowers...

"We can only hope to be like them, serene, aware, confident, surely born of simply sun, water and time".

And that reminds me of Matthew 6, where it talks of the lilies of the field. "They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you?" (Matthew 6:28-31)

I'm always glad for reminders.

out of here.

I bought my cap, gown, and tassel today. I guess it's official - I'm graduating in two months.

And now I just want to go. To India, to Nepal, to Argentina, to Peru, to Equatorial Guinea... anywhere. And I want to live life there or here or anywhere and I want to live in life's beauty and know God and be confident and love wholeheartedly... God, myself, everyone. I want to live out all that we just keep talking about. Good intentions, knowledge... great. Let's just go.

But I guess first I need to find a job that will pay me more than minimum wage (so I can live: "livable wages"), and cheap housing and an attitude that lets me LOVE wherever I'm at.

So this weekend I will research human rights issues in the form of hunger and diseases, and I will shop at Azteca Ranch Market (and eat free samples at Whole Foods), and I will sleep in and do yoga and drink coffee.

And the week will start over yet again until it is spring break. Then I will go home and SLEEP. And eat their food. And glean their knowledge. And come back again and love this place for another month until I'm thrown out into the REAL WORLD.

And I want to love God like I always have. And have the faith of a child. And that I will learn to do again.