Best birthday flowers I ever had.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
No big deal...
No big deal... I just turned in my last two assignments. Ever! It's so crazy.
Saw the new apartment... I'll live there for three months or so... And then onto another. And then another a few months after that. I am thankful for a place to lay my head, but I just wish I wasn't so transient in this time. Things are completely uncertain for the fall...
No matter how terrified I am at times of what is coming after January 1, I just wish it would get here. I don't want to move three times in the next eight months. I want to live in our apartment, together.
Change is still scary. But I am anxious for this season to pass. For my parents to get here, to celebrate graduation with those I love most, to have a week of relaxation. In a hammock.
To see old friends and new, and to start working again. To make money and save it, instead of spending it all away.
And I'm almost 22. I keep forgetting. I guess 22 is old enough, but my brain is too full today to process that in addition to everything else.
Saw the new apartment... I'll live there for three months or so... And then onto another. And then another a few months after that. I am thankful for a place to lay my head, but I just wish I wasn't so transient in this time. Things are completely uncertain for the fall...
No matter how terrified I am at times of what is coming after January 1, I just wish it would get here. I don't want to move three times in the next eight months. I want to live in our apartment, together.
Change is still scary. But I am anxious for this season to pass. For my parents to get here, to celebrate graduation with those I love most, to have a week of relaxation. In a hammock.
To see old friends and new, and to start working again. To make money and save it, instead of spending it all away.
And I'm almost 22. I keep forgetting. I guess 22 is old enough, but my brain is too full today to process that in addition to everything else.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
La vida buena.
Pandora(.com).
Over The Rhine (radio).
Endless hours of happiness, joy, and peace.
I can't choose a favorite song!
Okay, chosen. 'Blue Eyes' by Timmy Curran. Done.
Oh, and here comes graduation. Get me out of here.
I long for a week with my best friend and my parents... In, you know, just a little bungalow in Denver. With my own bedroom. And a hammock. A book? Maybe a movie? Hopefully the sun will be out... I'll sit in the hammock and wile the day away.
Oh, how life changes. It's so scary, and hard sometimes. But I'm thankful for those around me who support me, and us. I do love this.
Transitions...
Have always been hard for me. I always wait desperately for them to come and then cry about it later. Weird. This one, this next year, is going to be the biggest transition ever! But we get to do it together, and live in the grass and the trees and the sun... Together. Even though it will be hard... Engagement and marriage... We'll drive each other crazy. Oh, we already do! I'm excited about this. We love it. [edit: David insists that we don't drive each other crazy... Duly noted.]
Bloom is a magical place. Eh, that sounds weird. But people are sincere, in music and words and deeds, and I feel at home there. I never wear shoes, anymore, there. Even when rain turns to snow. But we remembered, yesterday, to take pleasure in the simple things. I love the encouragement that that idea is. Okay, I'll do that. Thanks!
Over The Rhine (radio).
Endless hours of happiness, joy, and peace.
I can't choose a favorite song!
Okay, chosen. 'Blue Eyes' by Timmy Curran. Done.
Oh, and here comes graduation. Get me out of here.
I long for a week with my best friend and my parents... In, you know, just a little bungalow in Denver. With my own bedroom. And a hammock. A book? Maybe a movie? Hopefully the sun will be out... I'll sit in the hammock and wile the day away.
Oh, how life changes. It's so scary, and hard sometimes. But I'm thankful for those around me who support me, and us. I do love this.
Transitions...
Have always been hard for me. I always wait desperately for them to come and then cry about it later. Weird. This one, this next year, is going to be the biggest transition ever! But we get to do it together, and live in the grass and the trees and the sun... Together. Even though it will be hard... Engagement and marriage... We'll drive each other crazy. Oh, we already do! I'm excited about this. We love it. [edit: David insists that we don't drive each other crazy... Duly noted.]
Bloom is a magical place. Eh, that sounds weird. But people are sincere, in music and words and deeds, and I feel at home there. I never wear shoes, anymore, there. Even when rain turns to snow. But we remembered, yesterday, to take pleasure in the simple things. I love the encouragement that that idea is. Okay, I'll do that. Thanks!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Summer.
I'm ready for summer. Two and a half weeks!
I love riding bikes... iced coffee... laying on the grass... garage sales... laughing...
Even when we're all working full-time like real adults, it will still be summer. And there will be a pool. And we'll live just across the street. What more could we want?
I love riding bikes... iced coffee... laying on the grass... garage sales... laughing...
Even when we're all working full-time like real adults, it will still be summer. And there will be a pool. And we'll live just across the street. What more could we want?
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Unmotivation and love.
I am entirely unmotivated today. I want nothing to do with school, work, anything. I want to make no effort whatsoever. But, life doesn't work like that. So here's what I've been thinking about lately.
Today I was listening to a radio show (not NPR, though I do LOVE NPR). The DJs were talking about marriage and diamond rings and such. One of them insisted that women will not stand for a cubic zirconium, blah blah blah. The reason he gave was that women get married "for the ring and the pageantry at the wedding". It's all for show, basically. It's all for everyone else. It's all superficial.
Nope. That's not it at all! It made me really sad... I want so much for our lives, our marriage.
I love him. I'm learning how to love him better, less selfishly. It's hard, but I'm learning.
I also love sunny days that turn into rain, walking hand-in-hand with Claire, listening to her sing made-up songs for 10+ minutes... It's so sweet. I also love weekends.
I realized a few days ago that my life will be completely, COMPLETELY, different in a year from now. I'm about to graduate college... Which means I'm done with school. Which means the routine and the way the year has worked all of my life is about to change. And then 8 months after that, we'll be married. And that's a HUGE, WONDERFUL change.
I'm excited for the advice people have to give us. If you're reading this, and you have any advice for engagement/wedding/marriage, please help. Thanks.
Today I was listening to a radio show (not NPR, though I do LOVE NPR). The DJs were talking about marriage and diamond rings and such. One of them insisted that women will not stand for a cubic zirconium, blah blah blah. The reason he gave was that women get married "for the ring and the pageantry at the wedding". It's all for show, basically. It's all for everyone else. It's all superficial.
Nope. That's not it at all! It made me really sad... I want so much for our lives, our marriage.
I love him. I'm learning how to love him better, less selfishly. It's hard, but I'm learning.
I also love sunny days that turn into rain, walking hand-in-hand with Claire, listening to her sing made-up songs for 10+ minutes... It's so sweet. I also love weekends.
I realized a few days ago that my life will be completely, COMPLETELY, different in a year from now. I'm about to graduate college... Which means I'm done with school. Which means the routine and the way the year has worked all of my life is about to change. And then 8 months after that, we'll be married. And that's a HUGE, WONDERFUL change.
I'm excited for the advice people have to give us. If you're reading this, and you have any advice for engagement/wedding/marriage, please help. Thanks.
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